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voguishpsychosis: okay and u ppl wonder why im hella...

Tue, 14 May 2013 21:10:06 +1000

okay

and u ppl wonder why im hella insecure.

i just said hella. kill me.

Oh hello

"Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or..."

Tue, 14 May 2013 21:09:18 +1000

“Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out your normal healthy ability to cope with bad days and bad news, and replaces it with an unrecognizable sludge that finds no pleasure, no delight, no point in anything outside of bed. You alienate your friends because you can’t comport yourself socially, you risk your job because you can’t concentrate, you live in moderate squalor because you have no energy to stand up, let alone take out the garbage. You become pathetic and you know it. And you have no capacity to stop the downward plunge. You have no perspective, no emotional reserves, no faith that it will get better. So you feel guilty and ashamed of your inability to deal with life like a regular human, which exacerbates the depression and the isolation. If you’ve never been depressed, thank your lucky stars and back off the folks who take a pill so they can make eye contact with the grocery store cashier. No one on earth would choose the nightmare of depression over an averagely turbulent normal life. It’s not an incapacity to cope with day to day living in the modern world. It’s an incapacity to function. At all. If you and your loved ones have been spared, every blessing to you. If depression has taken root in you or your loved ones, every blessing to you, too. No one chooses it. No one deserves it. It runs in families, it ruins families. You cannot imagine what it takes to feign normalcy, to show up to work, to make a dentist appointment, to pay bills, to walk your dog, to return library books on time, to keep enough toilet paper on hand, when you are exerting most of your capacity on trying not to kill yourself. Depression is real. Just because you’ve never had it doesn’t make it imaginary. Compassion is also real. And a depressed person may cling desperately to it until they are out of the woods and they may remember your compassion for the rest of their lives as a force greater than their depression. Have a heart. Judge not lest ye be judged.”

- Depression is not a synonym for being sad or having a bad day/bad week.

(via morningsuns)

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Sun, 05 May 2013 23:25:11 +1000

Ramesses

Sun, 05 May 2013 23:22:29 +1000

Ramesses

Feeling nervous/anxious

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 03:15:26 +1000

Feeling nervous/anxious

Tonight.

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 03:14:17 +1000

I don’t want to go clubbing anymore.

"You tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less..."

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 22:47:28 +1000

“You tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake…You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that.”

- Warsan Shire (via youthfulfreedom)

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Mon, 22 Apr 2013 22:45:49 +1000

"I wasn’t meant for reality, but life came and found me."

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 22:42:39 +1000

“I wasn’t meant for reality, but life came and found me.”

- Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet (via ted—bundy)

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Sun, 21 Apr 2013 22:48:24 +1000

Iqon boots!

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 22:47:51 +1000

Iqon boots!

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Sun, 21 Apr 2013 22:47:36 +1000

Cancer - 17th April.

Wed, 17 Apr 2013 08:59:59 +1000

Your sensitive heart may find it difficult to say the things it needs to say at this time. There is apt to be a degree of intimidation that stands between you and the person that you really need to talk to. Don’t be shy about initiating conversation in regards to topics that usually are not spoken out loud. Things will only get worse if you let these issues fester inside of you.

Enough is enough.

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 21:37:24 +1000

Things between us have changed, there’s no denying it either. It makes me sad though because we once had one of the greatest friendships that I’ve ever had. I feel like your bored of me or your just tired of my bullshit. I also think that your probably got another girl on the side so you don’t need me in your life anymore, which makes me feel like I’ve been used. I always wanted you to be mine but my feelings have changed. Congratulations you’ve pushed me away. You should be proud that i played your stupid ass game. I can’t believe how many chances i gave you. Its going to be hard to move on from you, considering I’ve known you for 7yrs. You were there for me and i thank you for that but you weren’t there when i needed you the most. I guess one could say that i cared more than i should of and i expected way too much from you but these past couple of weeks have been a real eye opener for me. Im sorry i couldn’t be that ‘perfect’ kick back chick that you hoped for but i do have feelings and i have been hurt before and i do get jealous of the other girls that you have slept with whilst sleeping with me.
This is the end of what was once a great thing that we had going on but i can’t sit back and be angry at you and myself.

Him

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 22:09:37 +1000

Trying to work out my thoughts for today has been way too messy. Today i felt a bit all over over the place, yet i was numb. For some reason i didn’t feel tired nor energetic, i didn’t feel hungry yet i still finished my meals.
I told this person that i was supposed to meet up with that im bailing on our plans because i felt like crap and cos they were sick and needed rest but really i did it because i knew that they were going to bail on me and i thought that it would be better for my self esteem if i did it first. Unfortunately it didn’t go that way, instead i still felt like crap. I put way too much effort into this relationship we have, when i shouldn’t. Im getting over the whole hard to get thing he plays. I don’t want to play games and im so over planning things that never work out and then im the one left sitting there with nothing to do. All these emotions i feel are pathetic. I don’t even know why i bother. I always tell myself ‘just leave it’ or ‘let him plan it’. I just can’t help myself. I need someone new in my life so i can focus on them and at least they will give me the attention i deserve.

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